this is just so you know

you're allowed to still feel it

you can get your heartbroken once and you can heal it and you don't have to erase it

that's all i wanted, you know

didn't need to go back

didn't care to undo it

i just thought

if i had to feel it

if i had to swim in it

it might as well have been mine

if it's going to go through me and i through it

i'd like some piece of it to be permanent

i think that's a strange thing, to want the hurt to stay

it's not that i liked it

it's not as if it didn't bind me, didn't rob me

i just want it to matter

and therefore it does